...that things have vastly improved since the last time I wrote, but they have not. The only thing that I can say I am grateful to have changed is that my class reunion is over!! Yay!! I have been stressing out over that for months. It went pretty well. Not hugely attended, but those that did come had a good time. They said so anyway.
Now that that little project is over, it is time to get down to the business of dissolving my marriage. yay. We have so much debt, this is not going to be an easy task. I am working extra hours to help get caught up on bills, but so far, we have not made a whole lot of progress. The reunion was a bit of a drain on the bank account, so maybe now we can get down to business. Then Christmas will be here before you know it. That is going to be challenging, to say the least. After the nightmare with the porn the early morning of our first Christmas here, I am not really sure if I want him here at Christmas at all. Unfortunatelty, it may not be feasible for him to have moved out by then. I wish things could be more tidy, more on track for getting this thing over with. I don't think he wants to be with me any more than I want to be with him.
The doctor bumped up my meds to help with my obsessive thoughts. I still cannot get "him"out of my mind....I wonder how long this will take. I still miss him, I still wonder if he is being treated well. Hell, I had a crush on him for two years, how can I expect it to go away in just a few months!
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